Uncovering the Depths of the Soul
Within each of us lie the treasures of our inner world—thoughts, feelings, and memories that, like hidden hoards, gather dust in the depths of our souls. Some of them are harmless and lie “in reserve,” like winter boots in the summer—seemingly useless, but not in the way. However, there are also more insidious memories—poisonous and harmful, ready to damage everything around them.
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How Did These Poisons Arise?
Everyone faces unfulfilled desires, unfulfilled dreams, and the painful experience of disappointment. There are moments when it seems like there’s no one around who can listen or offer support. Sometimes hurtful words get stuck in our minds—words we never managed to respond to properly. In an ideal psychological cycle, these negative emotions are eventually replaced by new experiences: defeats are followed by victories, and failures by happy moments. However, if irritation and dissatisfaction become your constant companions, then it’s time for a cleanse. It’s easy to identify food poisoning—nausea, chills, and a fever will give it away. But how do you know when “psychological intoxication” has set in? Constantly dwelling on the same thoughts is the main sign of emotional intoxication. Other symptoms may be caused by physical illnesses, such as vitamin deficiency, so be sure to check that your body is healthy.
The path to your true self
There are spiritual practices that promise liberation from emotional impurities and the attainment of inner enlightenment. But this often takes a lifetime. If you’re not willing to wait that long, there are other methods you can try. To begin with, it’s important to understand what exactly is polluting your soul—which memories cause you pain. If there are several such moments, you will have to work on each one separately. Like any procedure, psychological cleansing requires certain conditions to be met.
MAIN SIGNS OF “PSYCHOLOGICAL INTOXICATION”
- Depressed mood
- Tendency to cry
- Feeling that everything is falling apart
- Increased irritability
- Constant fatigue
- Forgetfulness
- Insomnia
- Obsessive repetition of the same thoughts
The Path to Yourself. There are spiritual practices that promise to purify the soul and lead to inner enlightenment. However, this journey can take a lifetime. If you don’t want to wait that long, it’s worth learning other techniques. Start by identifying the “poisons” that are tormenting your soul. If there’s more than one, tackle them one at a time. Psychological cleansing requires certain conditions.
Place. Find a space where you feel comfortable and safe, where nothing will distract you, and where you can focus on your feelings and thoughts.
Time. “Psychological detoxification” should be done slowly. You’ll need at least three hours to prepare, and sometimes several days to work through a single issue. It’s important that nothing distracts you—no phone calls, no household chores. If you feel like the world will collapse if you miss even a moment of the news, that’s a warning sign that you need to take care of yourself.
A support group. This could be a single close person—a friend, a relative, or a professional. Sometimes people suggest confiding in strangers, claiming it’s easier to open up to them, but in reality, it’s better to talk to those you truly value and can trust. This person should be able to listen attentively, help you sort through your thoughts, refrain from rushing to judgment, and avoid imposing advice, since there is already plenty of advice out there, but it is often superficial and overlooks details. Because of this, conversations turn into an endless back-and-forth:
- “Maybe you should do this.”
- “I can’t, because…”
- “What if you tried this instead?”
- “But that’s impossible too, because…”
If you don’t have someone like that around, don’t worry—just grab a pen and some paper. Writing down your thoughts will help you break out of the vicious cycle and chart a path forward.
Plan. Not everything will be resolved at once—you’ll have to take it step by step. To avoid jumping chaotically from one topic to another, choose a priority and focus on it.
Feelings and Emotions. In this age of modern technology, we often forget about our feelings and sometimes consciously shut them out, trying to think only rationally. But emotions are an important part of our nature: if left unchecked, they can flare up at the most inopportune moment, causing us to lose our temper and lose control. Tears at a work meeting are rare, but have you ever thought about how often they’ve welled up unexpectedly? To learn to manage yourself, understand your feelings:
- Make a list of them. At first, it might be short: joy, sadness, anger, happiness. Then try to dig deeper and identify subtle nuances, such as melancholy, or, conversely, intense emotions like elation or disgust.
- Divide your feelings into positive and negative ones. This is a subjective list, because for some people, sadness can be pleasant and beneficial, while others avoid it.
- Analyze your negative emotions. Don’t push them away—they are also a part of you and serve a protective function. Think about what they are protecting you from and what role they play in your life.
- Learn to acknowledge your feelings—only then will they cease to be enemies and become loyal allies.
A Broken Heart
Once you’ve sorted through your feelings, try to identify those that poison your inner world and eat away at your soul. The danger of such emotions is that they’re often two-faced—something dangerous lurks behind a harmless mask.
Resentment. It often hides anger that you are afraid to express or cannot express. Perhaps you were taught as a child that you had to be a “good girl.” Or perhaps the person who hurt you is stronger and instills fear. Resentment is anger directed inward, suppressed, and silenced.
Guilt. One of the most destructive emotions, because it’s rooted in the fear of punishment. Ask yourself: Are you really at fault? Did you do something you consider wrong? If so, what can you do to make things right? Who can you talk to about this? If your actions were justified but someone is judging you, separate your emotions from their judgment. Think about the specific people who are criticizing you—your parents, loved ones? Try to understand their motives and feelings. And finally, forgive yourself truly and completely. One priest taught that repentance is when a sin is not repeated.
Envy. It’s an unpleasant feeling to acknowledge, but it exists in everyone. Behind envy lie desires you’re afraid to admit even to yourself—for example, unfulfilled dreams or missed opportunities. Pay attention to what exactly you envy—appearance, success, money? Envy signals unrealized potential. Try to unlock it!
The danger of self-suggestion
We often hear ourselves and others say general, negative statements like: “People treat me badly,” “You never understand me,” “I’ll never succeed,” or “No job is right for me.” At critical moments, such judgments become more frequent, yet that is precisely when we need confidence, not self-criticism. To break the habit of sowing despair in your mind, change your inner monologue:
- Avoid all-encompassing expressions like “always,” “never,” “no way,” “forever,” “always,” “everything,” and the like.
- Turn generalizations into specific statements. Instead of “ Everyone hates me,” say: “This morning, my boss said I should see a doctor during my free time.” Instead of “You never understand me,” say: “Yesterday, during our conversation about vacation, I wanted you to listen to me carefully.”
- Use “I-statements” to express your feelings and desires: “And at that moment, I felt hurt and wanted to hide from everyone,” “At that moment, I got very angry.”
- Think through the ideal way out of a difficult situation. They say you shouldn’t beat yourself up after the fact, but analyzing what happened is helpful—it allows you to avoid repeating the same mistakes. If you’re going to make generalizations, let them be positive ones: “People love me,” “I’ll always find a way out.”
How can you avoid “re-contamination”?
- Don’t put off solving problems indefinitely.
- Talk about your feelings with the people they concern, or at least be honest about them with yourself.
- Don’t accept criticism indiscriminately. If something about yourself bothers you, try to understand exactly what is causing the dissatisfaction. Clearly define what you want to change—based on your own desires, not imposed obligations. Imagine what changes will occur after taking this step. If this is truly your sincere goal, go ahead and begin the transformation. Understand what can be criticized—your actions, not your feelings. Remember that emotions are the most important means of perceiving the world and yourself. Just as we don’t blame our eyes for what they see, don’t condemn your own feelings.
- Break the habit of constantly feeling dissatisfied with yourself. Contrary to popular belief, a state of perpetual dissatisfaction is not a worthy driving force for personal growth.
Complete Health
Indian doctor, philosopher, and healer Deepak Chopra emphasized the importance not only of fighting illness but also of creating an inner island of absolute health that can be expanded over time. Analyze how many times a day you praise yourself and how many times you criticize yourself. If the criticism is equal to or even greater than the praise, this is a sign that you are being unfair to yourself.
- Imagine that you have met someone dear to you, and you are genuinely happy about this encounter. How would you express your joy in their presence? Now look in the mirror and show that you enjoy your own company. Give yourself joy and pleasure. This is a wonderful opportunity to declare: “I love myself, I accept myself as I am, and I am grateful for my life.”
- Think back to those encounters in which you felt completely satisfied. Perhaps they were various encounters with different people, or a single meaningful interaction. Recall your actions, your inner feelings, the words you spoke and the tone you used, and how you moved. Try to carry this state of mind and manner of behavior over into other situations in life.
On the Importance of Humor
“Jokes prolong life,” said Baron Munchausen. So smile! Laugh at yourself, at those around you, at problems and stress. There’s always a reason to joke, and the best subject is yourself. Learn to view your mistakes and failures, joys and difficulties, victories and defeats with humor. One great thinker noted that only with a smile can humanity let go of the past. Think of any comedy: what absurdities and oddities did you laugh at? When someone unexpectedly gets a cake in the face, laughter is a natural reaction, and not a sign of malice at all. A joke told in real life often signifies tragedy. So said Nadezhda Teffi, a famous Russian writer of the early 20th century. Her life was full of trials, yet her works are filled with humor, which helped her endure hardships more easily.
